This is not a very happy, joyous, seasons greetings journal. Today, December 15, 2009, two members of my family died. My great aunt Cookie passed away quietly and ended her year-long struggle between life and death. I am happy for her, for she no longer has to suffer. However, another aunt, one whom I was quite close to, passed away also. A gunshot wound to the neck took her life prematurely. She still had much life to live and her death leaves a great hole in my family's hearts. My uncle, who loved her dearly, I was told was doing ok, just trying to sort this out in his mind. It is a sorrowful event and will take time to pass. I will miss my aunt greatly, as will the rest of my family. She was such a wonderful person- flawed like the rest of us. But, i feel so bad that I didn't get to know her better. So many times I have passed up an opportunity to spend time with my aunt and uncle and i regret it now. I had decided to visit them this weekend, as a matter of fact but, obviously, it is a little too late. Despite my regrets I am sure I will move on. I just hope with all my being that my uncle can do the same... In memory of those I have lost, I have decided to draw both my aunt Glenia, and my great aunt Cookie. I just hope it will do them justice. It will help me heal from their loss and keep them in my memories. Strange, how the loss always seems to come in December. My stepmother left my dad and I christmas eve, taking most everything with her, and now I have lost two family members. *sigh* December looks even bleaker every year...

Just wanting to update since i havent done so since November. So far, i am stressing out big time and trying to get my act together. Speaking of which, i need to draw a ton of stuff like logos, t-shirt designs, and English project drawings, but HEY!! i finished up my senior project!! it was killing me there for a while and i had to stay up till the wee hours of the morning to get it done but i did!! AND I MADE A 98 ON IT!!! how cool is that eh?! lol but anyhoos, i get to touch up a few things now and i just have to get my speech worked out T^T. i dont feel that ill have a problem with that though. after all i went thru trying to get the OTHER stuff done, the speech should be a cinch XDD. Right now, though, i feel like a contracted artist only...im not getting paid T^T. wat a pity. oh well, its the experience right? right?? lol but alls cool. i think im getting, slowly but surely, caught up in all of my work ^v^. and MAYBE i passed my calculus test!! that would make things all the sweeter!! XDD i would really love to sit and draw for my own purposes but oh well...no time for that m'fraid. itll all be ok soon, tho, cuz next semester is in JANUARY!! WOO!! ART ART N LATIN HERE I COME!! im not too excited about physics tho T^T...lol ill update again soon, hope everyone is ready for the holidays!!

Greetings!! Yesterday, November 3rd, was my 18th birthday, WOOO!! I had fun on my birthday but there wasnt enough time in the day to do everything i wanted to T^T. I had A LOT of driving to do T^T but all in all it was a good day...now im tired from it....comin down off mah birthday high lol. but UGH ive been SO busy!! this is the first time out of school that ive had a chance to sit down in front of a computer in liek, a week! IM GUNNA DIE!! well, im gunna have to make this short, im tired and have a headache TT^TT. but hey! im the big 1-8 now! teehee!! now i can buy lighters (YAY!), cigs (YUCK!), and lottery tickets ( WOOT!)!! LOL AND i can also serve beer in restaraunts (spelling?!) i dont feel much older, just more irresponsible than usual! so goodnight, all, im going to cath some Zs!! NIGHT! OH OH OH!! ANNNNDDDD i got a tablet for my b-day!! its pretty cool, tho i dont know how to use it. i need to get to teach me! XDD